words unspoken.......

this may not be the best time to be writin' one of these but ah well. tonight was a slow night. we worked a full day today, Carl and me. for the last while we had been putting in six or seven hour days but today the rest of the crew showed up and we started the new phase of construction. leaving at five was i guess still a half hour early.....nobody really cared.
dinner was excellent again, i don't think my aunt can make a bad meal, we've had some burnt ones but they still had flavor. i finished another L'Amour, this time a collection of his short stories. i lifted some weights cause i felt like it and then went for a roll.
this town really has nothing to ride except some curbs, i came home with a bruised shin and scraped hands.

tonight........tonight was a night where sitting and looking out at the mountains from the deck was.........lonely, really lonely. lonely that remembers what it's like to be with someone, to have them sitting beside you, whispering back and forth. simply having someone's presence so close that......even silence is ok.
But please don't comment about this post cause if i pull my head out of the sand i know this (being away) is a choice i've made, i know that it would be really hard, probably impossible, to be this free with someone to share it with. i imagine marriage may be a little like that, and someday i'll find out that it's probably far better. so i'll leave you with a quote from the weakerthans that if you want you can pretend is about me or maybe about you.

"If I could I would make you a raging river,
with angry rapids, supplied with rain,
so you could always meander and forever be able to run away
without contending
with myths wrongly interpreted
with pain.
A harsh wind."
-Without Mythologies